Showing posts with label Life. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Life. Show all posts

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

Friends, Family, Fun...and a little sadness

The last week and a half as been a bit of a whirlwind.  Today is the first day that I feel back to normal and back into our regular routine.

My BFF came to visit over a week ago.  She spent 5 days here visiting before I took her to Toon Town where her family lives.  It was a fun filled 5 days full of laughter, reminiscing, eating, drinking (I only had 1 beer) and shopping.  It had been 1 year since I had last seen her, and she was anxious to meet Master K.  Luckily, I will see her a couple more times this summer, so I'm looking forward to that.

My visit in Toon Town was short and full of mixed emotions.  My Gramma had a stroke a few days before my visit, so I guess it turned out well that I has coming to town. I visited with lots of family that I hadn't seen in a while, and Master K got to meet some new cousins and aunts/uncles.

It was hard to see my Gramma, although I kept it together pretty well, considering.  I just didn't want her to see me tear up.  I've always been really close with my Gramma, and we've always done a lot together.  It's one of the relationships I miss the most since moving away.  My Gramma has always been a doer, and until the stroke lived on her own in a seniors apartment building, baked, cooked and pretty much took care of herself.  Now, she will need constant care.  I know this is not something she wants.  Were not sure how long she will be with us.  She has lost the ability to move her right leg and arm, and cannot speak, yet.  When I saw her last week, she had so much to tell me, but the words just didn't come out.  She seemed very happy to see me, and lit up when she saw Master K.

It saddens me that Master K will never know his Great-Gramma.  She is a wonderful lady.  I'm so glad a had a nice visit with her during Free Comic Book Day weekend.  We sat visiting like we used to and Master K cuddled and rocked with her for about 20 minutes.  A good memory to have.

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

I hope justice prevails

I started getting the newspaper (again) last week. I had previously cancelled sometime ago, because I was tired of reading about all the violent crimes that occur in our city.

As I was flipping through today's paper, I came upon a very interesting article.

Some of you may know that I was selected to be a juror on a murder trial.

It was an exhausting process and definitely had an affect on me mentally and emotionally.

So....I was a little surprised when I read about the man who we found guilty, was getting a new trial. link

This bothers me on a few different levels:
1. Economically - more strain on our system and, what seems like a waste, of the taxpayers money
2. Emotionally - I went through a lot mentally and emotionally to be part of the trial; seeing and hearing things no one should ever have to.
3. Lack of faith in our justice system - Although the article discusses the lack of instruction to the jury from the judge - being that I sat on the trial, I'm going to have to disagree with a number of the reasons in the article.
4. Safety - to know that the individual you convicted of murder is getting a new trial is a little unsettling - especially if he is found not guilty.

However, I'm glad the new trial has been granted on the reasons that it has, and not on the evidence. This gives me confidence in the fact that a new jury should be able to conclude the same verdict as we did.

I do feel honoured to serve our justice system - but when things like this happen - it eats away at the faith I have in justice and our system.

Saturday, August 22, 2009

WANT TO BE A MERMAID OR A WHALE?

Recently, in a large French city, a poster featuring a young, thin and tanned woman appeared in the window of a gym. It said:
THIS SUMMER DO YOU WANT TO BE A MERMAID OR A WHALE??

A middle aged woman, whose physical characteristics did not match those of the woman on the poster, responded publicly to the question posed by the gym.

To Whom It May Concern:
Whales are always surrounded by friends (dolphins, sea lions, curious humans). They have an active sex life, they get pregnant and have adorable baby whales. They have a wonderful time with dolphins stuffing themselves with shrimp. They play and swim in the seas,seeing wonderful places like Patagonia, the Barren Sea and the coral reefs of Polynesia . Whales are wonderful singers and have even recorded CDs. They are incredible creatures and virtually have no predators other than humans. They are loved, protected and admired by almost everyone in the world.


Mermaids don't exist!
If they did exist, they would be lining up outside the offices of Argentinean psychoanalysts due to identity crisis. Fish or human? They don't have a sex life because they kill men who get close to them not to mention how could they have sex? Therefore they don't have kids either. Not to mention who wants to get close to a girl who smells like a fish store?


The choice is perfectly clear to me; I want to be a whale.


P.S. We are in an age when media puts into our heads the idea that only skinny people are beautiful, but I prefer to enjoy an ice cream with my kids, a good dinner with a man who makes me shiver and a coffee with my friends. With time we gain eight because we accumulate so much information and wisdom in our heads that when there is no more room it distributes out to the rest of our bodies. So we aren't too heavy, we are enormously cultured, educated and happy. Beginning today, when I look at my butt in the mirror I will think? Good gosh, look how smart I am.

Sunday, January 25, 2009

A Sadness; A Celebration of Life

Losing a loved one is never easy, no matter how many people you've lost in your lifetime. There is a sense of sadness and heartache that they are no longer in this world, experiencing life. But, at some point in all the sadness that comes with death, it's important to gain some perspective about the situation.

It's important to take stock of their life experiences (especially near the end), and try to think of their thoughts/perspective rather than your own. I know my Grampa is at peace. I know that he's been lonely since Gramma passed 7 years ago, I know he didn't like feeling/being sick, and I know he had lost the desire to do many things he enjoyed over the years. So, although we are sad (temporarily), we should think of Grampa, because I am sure he is finally happy and content.

Mr. J is an excellent counsellor - he helps me look at the positive; to remember the wonderful times I had with my Grampa; to celebrate those times; and to feel privileged that I got to know, love, share my life with him for 32 years.

Although I didn't see him much over the past few years, I will miss him dearly. But I am happy for him because he's been reunited with Gramma in heaven.

Saturday, January 17, 2009

Birthday Reflections

Now I realize I've said this & that in recent years, but TODAY will go down in history as being my warmest birthday ever..of course, until there is a day warmer..but until then, wahoo!!!! I can't believe it's going to be +11 today. Not only is it NOT -40, it's actually in the positives and double digits.

Reflecting on my final comments of last years post, my 31st year was great, and full of challenges as usual. The job is fantastic, and I still love going there everyday. The relationship is going strong, and we survived the challenges brought on by our new living arrangement, and are enjoying married life.

I travelled to San Jose and Jamaica this year, and cut back on the trips to Stoon. We took a mini-holiday to Canmore at New Years, and are looking forward to Dallas next month.

As for today, the first day of my 32nd year, I was surprised with a scavenger hunt to find my gifts. Once again, I got spoiled - funny t-shirts, video camera, Nickelback CD, gift cards, and more.

For the rest of the day, I plan on enjoying it with my hubby, relaxing with a massage in the late afternoon, and finishing the day off with our slo-pitch team's Annual Poker Party. It's going to be the perfect way to spend my birthday.

As for the rest of the days this coming year...I forsee big changes and new beginnings. I'm extremely excited.

Thursday, November 20, 2008

A Personal Misson Statement

I spent the last 3 days in the most amazing workshop - The 7 Habits of Highly Effective People. Although the purpose of my attendance was to evaluate the course material to see if it fit with our business plan and goals at work, I personally had a amazing experience.

Although I already spend quite a bit of time reflecting and developing myself, I enjoy the dedicated time to re-examine and focus on what's most important. It really helps me continuously evaluate my life goals - personally and professionally.

I am sure a lot of you have heard of Stephen Covey, and his 'Habits', and probably have your own opinions and perspectives on his theories. I was always one who didn't really pursue any of his concepts in university or work, as I subscribed to the rumours that it was boring...too 'fluffy' or simply, not practical to apply. I must say, my opinion has changed....dramatically.

His concepts aren't rocket science, their not overly complex; they are simply, 'Common Sense' approaches to life. Whether you are looking to communicate better, work more efficiently, develop yourself, become more optimistic...there seems to be something for everyone. I believe, everyone should spend time developing themselves; striving for the best - a highly effective person.

The main take-away for me was the development of a personal mission statement. I have known for quite a number of years what is important to me in my life, and the things I strive for, however I've never written them down, together, in one full statement. So in addition to my mantra that supports my 'blog title', here is my personal mission statement along with a visual representation.


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I want to:
  • Maintain my passion and ambition for all things in life
  • Lead a happy and healthy life through continuous learning, growth, and creation by:
    • seeking adventure and new experiences
    • giving to myself and to others
    • building loving and lasting relationships with family and friends
  • Always keep smiling-even in the face of adversity

Saturday, August 30, 2008

Friends

Life is too short to wake up with regrets. So love the people who treat you right. Forget about the one's who don't. Believe everything happens for a reason. If you get a second chance, grab it with both hands. If it changes your life, let it. Nobody said life would be easy, they just promised it would be worth it.

Friends are like balloons; once you let them go, you can't get them back. So I'm gonna tie you to my heart so I never lose you.

Saturday, May 31, 2008

Reflective Times

The Legislature Grounds are only a couple of blocks from my office building - wahoo! So beautiful and serene. I will definitely be spending a lot of time there this summer.

Thursday was particularly warm and sunny out so I decide to take a walk to the grounds. Now, it might have been the beautiful weather, or the fact that spring/summer is finally here, or perhaps I was just in a cheery mood, but I got thinking about my life and how happy I am in every single area of my life.

My career is taking off and I absolutely love my job, the people I work with, and the flexibility and autonomy I have with my work is wonderful. I own my own home, and after struggling for a bit, I am feeling fairly stable and secure in my financial situation. My love life is completely perfect; going strong; and continues to put a big smile on my face every day. I am more dedicated than ever to my family and continue to spend as much time with them as possible. I have great friends who love and support me tremendously and who let me know how fantastic I am doing; while continuing to meet new people and make new friends. I have been extremely active since I moved to Edmonton; joining sports like bowling, slo-pitch and volleyball; getting involved in Corporate Challenge for the 2nd year in a row; and trying new things like kickboxing. Finally, I am feeling stronger, more confident and independent than I ever have. before..which is hard to believe since I already thought I was pretty strong, confident and independent.

So....as I was thinking of all these aspects of my life during my walk, I concluded:
I've never been happier.....I am at my happiest!!

I continued my walk with a big smile on my face and soaked in the beauty around me.

Sunday, February 24, 2008

Couldn't think of a title

Well, it appears that I don't really do the blog thing much anymore. For those who still read it, I am sure you've noticed a steady decline in the number of posts I have been doing of late.

I suppose I could explain this in two ways:
1. I am very busy.
2. I've become much more private about my life. I prefer to share on a more personal level. So for those who haven't gotten a phone call or email lately, my apologies (see #1). I am going to make more of an effort in the future.

In other news...the weather is gorgeous here in Edmonton; I think Spring is on its way. Which makes me very, very happy.

My night class is a lot different than I thought. A lot more thought provoking than I expected. We are looking at the history of adult education; so we are spending a lot of time looking at historical sociological, psychological, and political themes in regards to adult education.

Volleyball is good...bowling is good. And I can't way for Slow-Pitch to start in April.

I just started playing Guild Wars this weekend, and I am having tons of fun. A nice quiet alternative to the typical MMOG. No one is really pestering me to join a team or engage in PvP. I highly recommend it.

Thursday, January 17, 2008

The End of Year 30

Reflecting back on my 30th year, I see many things: challenges, change, sadness, heartache, the end of friendships, happiness, wisdom..., and I am sure the list could go on and on. However, I will refrain from calling it 'a bad year' or 'a year of transition' (as many people have said to me). It has been a year of excitement and needed changes. Granted, there have been many changes over the year, I could say that about a lot of years in my life. My life is full changes, and I find it is really about how I decide to look at each situation and eventually summarize the events in my life that make it so. And like most everything in my life, I like to view my circumstances as positively as I can. That's just they way I am.

The beginning of my 30th year brought closure to a large chapter in my life. I said goodbye to a dear friend, who I loved for many, many years. It can be hard to say goodbye, I know in my heart it is the best for me. This period in my life has provided me with an opportunity to really grow and learn as an individual, and I've found that I am stronger because of it. Although it may have needed to end sooner than it did, I believe that everything happens for a reason and I know it ended exactly when it was suppose to.

Although I have spent the last year mostly away from family and friends, I have never been more dedicated in my life to invest time with those who are important to me and ensure that I am nurturing those relationships. I spent a large part of the year getting to know some of my friends on a more personal basis - taking the time to learn more about them. My friends have always been important to me, but when I look back a lot of my so called 'friendships' have been because we regularly ran into each other at parties or gaming events. Little did I realize that I really knew nothing about some of my friends, ones that I actually considered myself close to.

In getting to know one of my friends, I have found an amazing individual. He is thoughtful, caring, compassionate, patient and so much more. He truly brings out the best in me...someone who had been lost for sometime. I have found my soulmate in Mr. J; I love him deeply more than I could have ever imagined.

As my 30th year began to draw to a close, I began to feel a lot of stress and anxiety regarding my career. The exciting new job I had been offered last ear was turning into the 'Worst Job of my Life.' There was a lot of soul searching and job searching, trying to get a handle on my situation, and it wasn't improving. Finally, a break! With a great job opportunity just around the corner and a much needed holiday, I was back on my feet feeling as confident as ever regarding my career. The year has ended off with a bang, as I start my new job just days before my 31st birthday.

It has been an wonderful, exciting year navigating a new job (two, I guess), a new city, single life, and a new relationship.

I look forward to my 31st year, as I am sure it will bring forth many challenges, as usual.

Sunday, January 13, 2008

First Creation of 2008

A gift from my sweetie - a 3D puzzle of Camelot.

It didn't take long after returning home from the holidays before I started separating and organizing the pieces. After 3 long sittings working on it, it is complete. I should really get at assembling all my other puzzles. They are sitting in pieces in their boxes.




In other news, I've got a busy, busy week. I start my new job tomorrow, I start my new class on Tuesday night, I start the new season of Volleyball on Wednesday, I am off for a birthday supper at my friends on Thursday, and finally, bowling on Friday.

I am already looking forward to the weekend and the week hasn't even started yet.

Sunday, January 06, 2008

First Challenge of 2008

I did say in my last post that I had no specific resolutions, but that I would continue with my standard MO. So in keeping with my MO of 'challenging myself, I am going to try to be more poetic in 2008.

My sweet Mr. J gave me the Magnetic Poetry Haiku Kit as one of my gifts this Christmas season. As well as a book of poems by e.e. cummings.

I just finished assembling the magnetics on my fridge and completed my first haiku poem (ever) of 2008.

a flower petal
blossoming for a childs smile
will fall with a tear

Saturday, January 05, 2008

Time for Something Different

As many of you already know, I have been quite disgruntled about my work for the past number of months. There have been little things (perhaps, medium) that have come up over the course of the year that have been bothersome, as I feel there are some bad business practices occurring and definitely poor management.

I consider myself a fairly knowledgeable individual, especially when it comes to business. I am also a fairly strong individual who likes to work in an environment that is open (for the most part), honest, trusting, and values the contributions of their employees. It was becoming apparent at work, that this was not the case. It has caused me a lot of grief, stress and anxiety. More than I actually realized. I guess stress does that to you sometimes. But, I digress more than I would have liked.

So, I have been job hunting for the past few months. It must have been good timing, as when I starting looking there were lots of jobs in 'Learning & Development' advertised.

I have since had a number of interviews, all very promising and strong. However, due to the holiday season there have been delays that could not be prevented. I still think 'they' were quick considering.

I start my new job on January 14th with the Government of Alberta. I am elated, excited, thrilled, ecstatic....etc. It is a job in my field, with an organization that can provide endless opportunities for advancement, and something that will help create some stability in my life/career.

So far, the New Year has been very, very good to me. I have no specific resolutions this year. I will continue with my standard MO - take care of myself, eat well, exercise, always challenge myself, give/help to others, and spend time with family and friends.

Tuesday, October 02, 2007

Finally...Deliberations

Well, the end is finally drawing near for me and this trial. It has definitely been a experience...a roller coaster of events and emotions. As this part of my life draws to a close, I can honestly say that I will look at the world around me very differently. I never expected such an event would have such an impact on my life, but it has.

For those of you who have burning questions regarding the trial, you'll have to just sit down with me for a chat, as I am not going to post any of the juicy/graphic details on this blog. I will happily tell you all about my experience, that's if you really want to know, as I am sure it will help get a few things out for myself. I never realized how difficult it can be on a person when they have absolutely no outlet to vent or discuss ones day. Whether it is talking to a friend, spouse, partner..whomever, everyone needs to unwind at the end of the day....talk about their day. I haven't been able to talk about my day for the last 4 weeks. That's tough, and I am looking forward to getting some of it out to anyone who is interested in listening. My friend A already offered her listening ear, however I believe a bottle of wine was part of the arrangement. :)

I may be absent for a few days, but it isn't like I post everyday, so I am sure you won't even notice.

I will be heading back to Saskatoon this coming weekend for a wedding and Thanksgiving celebrations. It's a busy weekend, and it seems that I've always got events to go to that prevent me from seeing everyone I would like to. But, I hope to catch up with some of my friends.

You know that feeling you get when suddenly you realize that everything is going to be 'OK'? I had that last night, it was wonderful. I guess some things do just take time.

Wednesday, September 26, 2007

Karma

A little something my mother sent me today. My mother is a wonderful, smart lady.

Instructions for Life
  1. Take into account that great love and great achievements involve risk.
  2. When you lose, don't lose the lesson.
  3. Follow the three R's:
    1. Respect for self,
    2. Respect for others, and
    3. Responsibility for all your actions.
  4. Remember that not getting what you want is sometimes a wonderful stroke of luck.
  5. Learn the rules so you know how to break them properly.
  6. Don't let a little dispute injure a great relationship.
  7. When you realize you've made a mistake, take immediate steps to correct it.
  8. Spend some time alone every day.
  9. Open your arms to change, but don't let go of your values.
  10. Remember that silence is sometimes the best answer.
  11. Live a good, honorable life. Then when you get older and think back, you'll be able to enjoy it a second time.
  12. A loving atmosphere in your home is the foundation for your life.
  13. In disagreements with loved ones, deal only with the current situation. Don't bring up the past.
  14. Share your knowledge. It is the way to achieve immortality.
  15. Be gentle with the earth.
  16. Once a year, go someplace you've never been before.
  17. Remember that the best relationship is one in which your love for each other exceeds your need for each other.
  18. Judge your success by what you had to give up in order to get it.
  19. Approach love and cooking with reckless abandon.

Monday, September 24, 2007

Updates

My daily trip to the law courts continues to be interesting. It looks as though we may be wrapping up early, so it's back to work for me sooner rather than later. However, it is nice to know that my Thanksgiving weekend won't be ruined. I'll be back in Saskatchewan for a wedding and the family supper.

As for my social activities, my floor hockey team won't be playing this fall. It seems we registered too late even though I got a confirmation that we were registered for Thursday. Oh well, I still have volleyball on Mondays and bowling on Fridays.

I was in Calgary this past weekend with my friend Andy. We were visiting JC, as it was the last time we were going to see her before she moves far away to Dallas. It was a fantastic girls weekend, even though we ate way too much crappy food.

Heroes Season 2 starts tonight, and I am pretty excited. Although, I will have to be satisfied with only watching one episode a week.

Monday, September 10, 2007

I've been selected

I think it will be an interesting few weeks. I can't believe out of 230 people, I got picked. I am never that lucky, never!

Sunday, September 09, 2007

Dinner & a Movie

Last night Andrea & I went out for a girls night out. We had a late dinner at Joey Tomatoes. It was delicious. The Three Cheese Pate with red pepper jelly was amazing. Exactly how an appetizer should, not too fatty, greasy, or heavy.

It was nice to get out for drinks, supper and good conversation. Both of us were so busy over the summer, we didn't get to hang out as much as we would have liked.

After dinner, we hopped over to the City Centre Cinemas and watched Shoot 'Em Up. Fun, fun, fun!!! There is a lot of gun fire, LOTS! But it suits the movie. The action was so intense that I didn't even realize half way through the movie that the plot hadn't been fully explained. And that is usually my pet peeve in movies. I like there to be a reason behind what I am watching. Go see it, it's tons of fun.

What does today have in store for neuba? I think I am going to cook most of the day. I bought myself a huge warehouse package of ground beef, and I plan on make a big batch of homemade meat sauce that I can squirrel away for the winter. I also plan on using some for lasagna. And now that I think about it, I could probably make cenobyte's 'Once a Week' soup. Mmmmmm, so tasty.

Tomorrow I am off to the court house. I am looking forward to the whole jury selection process. Although I will be away from work for awhile if I get selected, I am secretly hoping I get picked. Not to be away from work, as work is busy and exciting right now. I just would like to be part of this whole process.

Wednesday, August 29, 2007

Break the Cycle

My weekend was fantastic. I partied with Jen & Chad both Friday night and Saturday night in celebration of their move to Dallas. I am very excited for them, and I am especially excited for any upcoming visits of mine to their fancy house with a pool. A little applaud that they can buy a 3000 sq. ft home with a pool for pretty much the same price as mine. I guess the price they pay is having to live in Bush's home state.

Saturday afternoon/evening I got to help celebrate Malcolm's 30th birthday. Furlak, Bne and I headed over to his & Erin's place for some games, videos, and chatting. The party also included Steve, Jen and Seamus. It had been many years since I had seen any of them, and I would probably say I barely know them, but it was nice to see them again and re-connect, if you will.

All in all the weekend was full of fun and friendship. It is definitely a good feeling to know that I have friends nearby who care about me, and who I can call on anytime I need a place to crash. Yes, that is you Ben & Furlak. Oh, and Erin and Malcolm too.

I have recently updated my Flickr page, so check out some of the pictures of my Vegas trip, my summer vacation, and the past weekend. There are some great shots.

As for my post title, it really has nothing to do with my post. It was just something interesting Furlak said this weekend when we were talking about life changes. It is always good to change your habits...hang out with different people, do something different with your leisure time...start a new activity. Sometimes people don't realize how different life can be until they break the cycle. But, habits are hard to break.

Wednesday, August 01, 2007

Gearing Up

Only 2 more sleeps and I am off for my summer vacation. It isn't going to be very long, but it is going be a lot of fun. I have been looking forward to it since the end of May when I requested the time off.

I will be arriving in Saskatoon sometime Friday night, and James & I are off Saturday to Lower Fishing Lake. I am so excited, I can barely contain my excitement. I love my lake....I love my cabin....just fond memories I have. I am extremely nostalgic about being at the lake. Keeping the lake/cabin in the same form as when I was a kid, is extremely important to me. I have had to make a few concessions...like when we got a microwave, or when they got rid of the wood burning stove. I even opposed the big deck that was constructed on the back of the cabin. However, I love it now. Even though I have loosened up a bit, and am looking forward to the renovations in summers to come, I am a stickler for some things. No TV and no phone. I really like the peace and serenity that I feel at the lake, and I don't need loud, annoying technology to ruin it.

With my love of the lake you would think I would try and get up there often, however it has been over 2 years since I was there last. Which is another reason for my excitement.

I am also glad that many of my family members will be around. My parents, Mike & family, my uncle & his kids, my gramma, and James & I. It is going to be a blast.

Also, the fishing...squee!!!!!

We're back in Saskatoon next Thursday, and I hope to get in some visiting time with my friends who I miss dearly.....before we have to leave for Regina on Saturday for a wedding. My best friends brother is getting married, so we are going down for the celebration. It will be fun to spend some time with my second family. We're staying with my uncle, who is in the midst of moving his belongings to Calgary, so a brief visit will have to do. On the way home, I am looking forward to stopping in to see cenobyte & the family for a short visit.

It is going to be a whirlwind vacation, but I know I am going to love it.

Huzzah! SMAC!