Difficult Times

I realize the body is pretty resilent and can generally handle a lot of stress - temporarily of course. But, I swear, if one more thing gets added to my already high pile of *crap*, I think I will have a nervous breakdown.

Although starting a new job is exciting, it can be pretty stressful. I am learning about a completely new industry, getting to know a new set of people & learning how to work with them, adapting to a new culture and work environment and doing this in an unfamiliar city.

Again, coming to Edmonton has been exciting, but it has removed me from a city I have spent the last 10 years in and a province I have live my entire life. I have left all of my family behind and many of my close, dear friends. Although I have been very lucky and greatful to be staying with my dear friends here in Edmonton, it is hard living somewhere temporarily with only a few of my own things around me to comfort me. My entire lifestyle has changed from where I go to work, to where I eat and sleep, to who I hang out with.

On top of this all, I have been away from my wonderful hubby, which hasn't been easy. Although we talk amost everyday, we have only seen each other a couple of times since I left. With the sudden move and uproot of my life, and focusing on the exciting aspects of this change, I kinda lost track of what is really important. I really miss him a lot. I will be very happy when he joins me in a few days.

In addition to all of this, I have been struggling with a number of personal issues over the past few months. Self reflection is hard and draining and can result in confusion and hurt feelings. I have come to the conclusion that I think 'way too much' and over analyze 'way too much'. I really need to find a way to shut off my brain.

On a more positive note, I am confident in my ability to survive and I know that I will be better, eventually. I just think it will take a long time. Let's hope nothing more gets added to my plate.